Monday, August 29, 2011

What Dreams May Come

I have been having some weird dreams lately. I am the type of person that hardly ever knows I'm dreaming when it's happening and when I wake up, I am relieved that it was only a dream.

Occasionally, I will have dreams about people who were once in my life and no longer are--those who are alive or have passed. Dreaming about the ones that have passed freaks me out because it feels like they still exist in this world. When I wake up, I can't speak to them and this makes me very sad. The flip side is at least I get to see them again even though it's only in my head and that makes me happy because they are still very much a part of my heart. 

My mom has the ability to sense things before they happen especially in her dreams. It is very strange how she channels things, people and events that have yet to come. I was once told that I had the potential to do this but I closed that gate a long time ago. I'm not quite sure why but it's most likely out of fear.

If I had to choose between dreaming and not dreaming--I'd choose not to only because I don't know I'm actually dreaming. If I was able to somehow make myself aware, I wouldn't mind it as much. I could all of sudden have wings when the monsters tried to get me. Or better yet, have today's winning lottery numbers pay me a visit!

Friday, August 26, 2011

To Hop Or Not To Hop?

Yesterday was so hot I couldn't breathe! I felt like laying over a tub of ice like a beached whale eating popsicles and getting fanned.

Today I have things to do but I may go movie-hopping later on or tomorrow. Some possible movies are Columbiana and Don't Be Afraid of the Dark. I may start with the scary one first but I like Zoe Saldana so paying for that ticket might be the way to go.

Oh wait! Just thought of something! I'll buy the Columbiana ticket but watch Don't Be Afraid of the Dark first. How sad though because I like Guillermo del Toro - decisions, decisions...I'll let the Hot Hot Heat decide.

"Talk to me! Dance with me, here! You're the spotlight girl!"

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

Golden Morning

Beyond my window makes me eager to let the sun toast my skin.
I am happiest when it's bright. 
I'll always win in the light.

Thursday, August 4, 2011

Travel Bucket List

I love to travel and have this dream of visiting all 7 continents. So far I've been to 2 other than the one I live on -  Asia and Europe. I have only known one person to visit Antarctica and she flew to South America and then went by sea to the continent.

I've always wondered if you're in a country or city - for example during a layover - if that counts a visiting. I was in a layover in Switzerland and was completely taken aback by seeing the Alps. Maybe next time I'll actually get the chance to ski on them.

On my bulletin board, the current places I have on my bucket list are:

Space? The Moon?

All of them are definitely possible but that last one---I'm not so sure. Maybe in my lifetime Virgin Galactic will become affordable.

Some other places I'd like to add on my Bucket List are:

The Caribbean

There are also a bunch of places in California and the US that I have yet to go and it makes me a little sad because it's definitely possible!

The Grand Canyon
Mount Rushmore
Napa Valley
Paso Robles
Montana (Don't ask me why but I've always wanted to go there, Lol)
New Orleans

Monday, August 1, 2011

Write! Rewrite:( Abandon! Start Anew!

This is the process that my writing has been going through lately. I start working on something that I feel strongly about. I'm inspired, exciting and hopeful. Then after I write a couple of pages, I print it out and read it aloud. I have no idea why but that is the make or break point for my writing. If I think what I'm reading doesn't sound good, I get frustrated, stuff it somewhere in a pile of papers, close the window on my computer and abandon it. I get mad at myself for two reasons: one, for writing something I think sucks and two, for not finishing.

When I explained my predicament to a close friend of mine, she pointed out how I put too much pressure on myself and how I shouldn't think of the outcome as necessarily a bad thing but to acknowledge the fact that I've been inspired and have 5-6 novels that I've at least started.

This really opened my eyes and made me realize that sometimes beauty of art isn't necessarily the finished product--it is the process by which an artist goes through in order to create one's work or simply, an idea. She also said this in not so many words.

The promising thing is that right now I have a novel that I have been sticking with. I've read it back to myself a couple of times and haven't decided it sucks...yet!

Secretly, in the back of my head, I think of my brother when I'm writing my stories because he has always encouraged me to write.