Wednesday, December 26, 2012

Happy Holidays!

 I hope everyone had an awesome Christmas. I had a beautiful Christmas Eve and Christmas. We have this tradition where Brian and I open our gifts plus the ones from our family across the states on Christmas Eve and then we open gifts at my mom's  house on Christmas. This way, we get to act like crazy, excited, pajama-jumping, little kids at home and then we act like the calm, collected, polished adults we really are when around other people.

Brian cracks me up! He shook and tried to guess every present the night before Christmas Eve. This holiday season my heart yearned for the family and friends I don't get to see everyday but thanks to technology, we were able to FaceTime our family in Michigan.

I am so grateful for this time. This moment in life when all differences are set aside and the gratitude of living is infectious. During the holiday season, we are humans first, people second. Our aims begin with love and the art of giving is selfless.

No matter what religion you are or whether you celebrate the holidays or not, this is a time for reflection. This is a moment of pause to think of those who lived before us, those who are living now and those who will come after us.

We are thankful, grateful, alive and living. 

We are one.

Friday, December 14, 2012

Then Again...

Maybe it is the end of the world when tragedies like this happen. 
It's the end of a lot of people's worlds today and our hearts are heavy.


There is no way this world will end.
My children haven't been born yet.
We haven't celebrated our thirtieth anniversary
I haven't been to Paris or Italy yet.
The love and hope I see in my family 
And friends hasn't completely diminished.
Brian's goddaughter is just a baby  
And we will watch her, her brothers and cousins grow and learn and live. 
My new niece or nephew is still baking in my sister's belly. 
My other nieces and nephew have grown into
And are becoming world-changing, intelligent beings. 
Some of my dreams have yet to come true 
And brew inside me with an unstoppable impatience.
We've just begun to Live

Thursday, December 6, 2012

In Lieu Of @ On The Rox

Thanks to Nose Wiggle Productions (Please "Like" if you dig the images) we were able to get a few photos from our show this past Saturday, December 1 at On The Rox in Hollywood. You can view the entire album here:

The show was awesome! It's probably our last one for 2012 since the holidays are coming and everyone will be taking their vacation. You can also view and "Like" our music page here: In Lieu Of Facebook. When I'm on stage, I feel like a bolt of lightning has entered my body. I am where I should be and able to express myself artistically through our music and songs.

Here are a couple of photos we took from that night. Don't know why my lips look like I got collagen injections but they have a mind of their own. I'm thinking it's slightly smeared from singing with the microphone. Enjoy!!

Friday, November 30, 2012


My mom's birthday was beautiful! We drove to Temecula and stayed at the Temecula Creek Inn. We ate, drank (I love my mom's Tequila face), laughed, stuffed ourselves with cake, gambled at Pechanga Casino and reveled in the lush greenery that surrounded us. It was a much needed getaway and a refreshing way to celebrate Thanksgiving. Her birthday was so special. She is my hero and a timeless person. Here's a few pics, Enjoy!

Monday, November 19, 2012

Abode Welcoming

Our abode-welcoming aka housewarming party was great! I had so much fun and am so thankful for the special people we have in our lives. Unfortunately, I didn't take any photos but I lived the moment and sometimes that's more important then snapping a photo at every second.

Here's a photo of our living room - the qualities sucks and it doesn't do our house justice. This was taken right before Halloween. The house has come a LONG way since then.

My mom's 50th birthday falls on Thanksgiving this year. How special is that? I am such a Mommy's girl (I'm also a Daddy's girl too since I am the only girl) and I cannot wait to celebrate this milestone with her. She is a unique, an inspirer and an all-around fun person to be around.

Have a Happy and Safe Thanksgiving! If you're physically participating in Black Friday (which I'm not) please be extra safe. There's some crazies out there and I don't want anyone getting trampled upon. 

Wednesday, November 7, 2012

The Piano

 *Photo by: Brian*

Whenever I feel lost, confused, or upset, I return to the platform that calms me. I return to what I know, what I feel and what feeds my soul. No judgment, no harshness, no bias--only music and my fingers.

**Very happy about the election. I voted for Obama and will stand by him for the next years fours.**

Tuesday, October 30, 2012

My Second Green Smoothie...I Think?

To be honest, the first one is a blur. I do know, that I have made a green smoothie before and it was gross! I made it with kale and for some reason it didn't blend all that well so I could taste the particles. Anyway, I made my second green smoothie this morning and it was delicious!

I'm on a new health kick with my bestie Stephanie, who writes this awesome blog called Food Gossip. It's based on this book called Eat To Live where you embark on a plant-based diet for six weeks and slowly introduce meat and dairy back into your diet if you choose to.

This morning, I made a recipe from his book called Eat Your Greens Fruit Smoothie. I blended almond milk, pomegranate juice, a banana, spinach, frozen blueberries and ground flaxseed. Halfway through the blended, I notice the smoothie was turning a brownish color and I thought YUCK! This looks like dirt! The color never changed once the smoothie was finished but I decided to take the plunge and try not to focus on that. My first sip was yummy! Here's the recipe:

Eat Your Greens Fruit Smoothie
Serves 2

5 ounces baby spinach
1 banana
1 cup frozen blueberries (or any berries)
1/2 cup unsweetened almond milk (or soy/hemp)
1/2 cup pomegranate juice (or other unsweetened fruit juice)
1 tbsp ground flaxseeds (optional)
Blend all ingredients in a blender until smooth.

Enjoy! xoxo

Friday, October 26, 2012


**Photo by Brian**

I've been thinking about all of the things I can do for free. Moving has taken up so much of my time (and money!) and that doesn't mean that I should ignore the explorer inside of me. Brian calls it Cabin Fever. If I stay in the house for days, I get antsy and grumpy. It isn't necessarily that I need to be around people, I just need to get outside. Now that we have our own private patio, I will definitely be taking advantage of lazy Saturdays drinking tea or eating breakfast outside. (Once we get a patio table!) In the meantime, these are some of the ways I'd like to enjoy this season without spending a chunk of money. 

-Drive up the coast of Pacific Coast Highway. I love having the beautiful ocean as my companion and we, Southern Californians, are so lucky to live near it. It's not five minutes away, although I have lived in places where it was but with good traffic, Malibu is about twenty to twenty-five minutes away. The ocean is a pleasure that we don't take advantage of nearly as much as we should. When I'm near the water, watching the sunset, I feel free. Even during autumn or winter, the beach is a magnificent, windy beauty.

-Go to the library. This has been on my list for years. The closest I've got is walking into Powell Library at UCLA but that was on my lunch break and I didn't get a chance to rediscover the place I spent so many years studying and contemplating things.Going along with my "No new books till I've read the ones I own" 2012 New Years Resolution, I never said I couldn't borrow! I have actually bought a couple of books this year but no novels! Only recipe or health books.

-Enjoy the park. We used to live right near Lake Balboa but now I have to drive to get there. I miss my bike rides. I especially miss the walks with my great friend Adelia where we would talk about anything and everything that was going on in our lives. 

-Read. My bucket list for reading will never empty because I have yet to finish the book I've been reading for the last year The Elegance of the Hedgehog. If I could just get back into the swing of reading. Books and bubble they go together?

There is one thing I'd like to start doing that will require a little bit of money and that's ice skating! There a rink right down the street from our house and my goal for this holiday season is to bravely stop hugging the rail for dear life and learn how to do actually do a turn. I'd like to do a small turn and then learn how to do that endless turn like the skaters do and then put my leg up.

In time, in time, lol!

Wednesday, October 24, 2012

Be Gentle...

I'm new to Bloglovin so be kind and Follow my blog with Bloglovin!

Let me know if you're on there so I can follow you to. I subscribe to so many blogs and want to make sure I'm keeping up with all of them.

Wishing I was in Thailand right now! 

Happy Wednesday Aliens!

Monday, October 22, 2012

Weekend Update

**From the birthday party**

This weekend was great! We enjoyed our talented friend Fabio's birthday party on Saturday night, grilled turkey burgers on the back porch at our new place for the first time on Sunday and continued our Sunday night tradition of watching Dexter while folding laundry.

I was able to unpack two more boxes, clean the house and run all of my errands. I still had time enjoy the beautiful quiet of my home and watch the Avengers for the 100 millionth time while shredding old bills and papers. I love a productive weekend!

Wednesday, October 10, 2012

Road Runner vs Coyote

Yesterday evening at my weekly therapy session, I discovered that sometimes my to-do lists add more stress upon me than they alleviate it. I set my completely unpacked goal for two weeks and it's looking more like one month. What's my rush? What's my hurry?

Then I started thinking about other things in my life and how I feel like time is the Road Runner and I'm the Coyote. If I put so much pressure on myself to get things done, do I commend myself for the things I complete?

The truth is...not as much as I should. I need to pat myself on the back more and stop dwelling on how many more things I have to get done. I finally bought some new running shoes and that's been on my list for months! As soon as I bought them, my first thought was about what else I need to buy instead of commending myself for checking off a list item.

I think appreciation and acceptance will be my themes for awhile. I need to appreciate the process of settling into our new home and spend time going through boxes full of history, memories and donation-worthy items. I also need to accept that time shouldn't be something I chase, but rather something I dwell in and savor (like an unagi roll with avocado).

Anyone have their Halloween decorations up? This year, I want something spooky and cool at our place. 

Friday, October 5, 2012

Clean Clothes = Happy Me!

We bought a washer and dryer yesterday off of Craig's List and I am sooo happy! Our previous washer broke and our old dryer works but since these were better quality, we snatched them up. The older dryer will be modeling itself on Craig's List very soon. 

Let's just say that our laundry's been so piled up that I bought underwear from Target to get through the week. I attempted to do laundry after work the other night and one place was completely full and a worker at another said it was last call right when I walked in with a basket of clothes. I was beyond annoyed.

Yes, I could have washed some things out by hand but Ive been so swamped with work, figuring out dinner, adjusting to the commute and unpacking. Next time, by hand will be the way to go!

So now, thanks to my frantic hunt on Craig's List and my lovely Brian's man-strength, we have officially done our first load of laundry in our new place and I am a happy camper. Our next stop is to find a kitchen table, night stands and a treadmill. Gym memberships are sooo expensive and although our house is in a gated community, outside that community isn't the greatest of neighborhoods so running at home might be the best way to remain safe and stay active. We'll see...

It's the little (and big) things that make this house --which brightens my soul every time I walk inside of it--home.

**I'll post some pics once when we finish more unpacking;) 

Tuesday, September 25, 2012

Settling In

We are officially settling into our new home. There are still items we have to get from the old place but we've spent three nights in the new one. Right now my life is unpacking, putting away, organizing and adjusting. It's been rough and I am exhausted. I am sort of in a funk today and I think it's because I want to let go of the old place already but I can't until we get every last item out plus clean it. Then the cathartic breath will be released and I can say goodbye to the past six years of my life.

Since I am crabby today, much like a baby who hasn't had a nap, I will instead focus on five things that I am grateful for at this moment.

1) Our new home
2) Two and 1/2 bathrooms -  Makes my life sooo much easier!
3) Finally over my cold and feeling almost 100%
4) Looking forward to setting up the studio again so we can finish the album now that my voice is back.
5) Falling asleep on the couch and having Brian wake me up to walk me up the stairs to put me to bed. It's kind of a ritual:)

I cannot wait to be completely unpacked! I know it will take some time. I am forcing myself to donate some of my stuff that I don't really use or wear. Letting go is tough but it is also very liberating. I also want to start an acoustic blog series where I perform one of my songs. Once I get settled, I will add this to my blog to-do list.

Sunday, September 16, 2012

Abode Upheaval

We are moving!
Not to another planet.
Not to another country.
Not to another state.
But to a different house.

We are both fighting our colds but I'm almost healed. Zinc has now invaded our daily vitamin regimen thanks to my friend Rachel's advice. It always makes me feel queasy but I'm taking it with food and desperate for my throat to heal.

So...although I've abandoned Pinterest due to the fact that I'd rather live my dreams then see then pinned to imaginary boards, I decided that since we'll be broke for awhile once we move in, I can put my creative juices at work with DIY projects. So my pinning has begun again but only for projects that will manifest in real life.

Check me out here - I'd love to follow you and find out if anyone has any DIY projects for the home, closet or bathroom.

I'm sooo excited! I'm over the moon. The place we've stayed in for the last six years was a great home to live in. Now the owner is building upon the backyard. Once there were two people living on this property, then four and now it will be eight. Not the ideal situation for newlyweds. Plus, the construction going on hasn't been good for our health. We haven't been sleeping soundly and the constant sound of hammering and drilling takes a toll on one's soul after awhile.

In a couple of weeks, we'll be moving out and moving on. Of course, I will miss this place. This is the place where I built a life with the guy I met at Cinespace who became my boyfriend and then became my husband. We got engaged, planned a wedding, lost jobs, got hired, wrote tons of music including this album that needs to get finished once my voice is back, had memorable birthday parties, beer-pong tournaments, traveled to Asia for the first time, family visits...the list goes on.

Now, I am looking forward to creating new memories in our new home. I need a fresh start and a new beginning. (And quiet mornings with no construction!)


Wednesday, September 12, 2012

Under The Weather

I am still fighting this cold but I know in time it will go least, that's what the doctor told me.

Rest, patience, fruits and vegetables is my prescription. So let the healing begin...

A photo by Brian from the show.

Thursday, September 6, 2012

Hiatus. Limbo. Crossroads.

 Camping in Michigan 

Brian and my Sil (sis-in-law) Cheryl 

S'Mores Galore! 

At Lelli's with Lindsey and Rob.

At the show with my brother Naje

Hi Fellow Aliens!

It's almost been one month since my last post. The lovely Introvert jolted me back. I've been waiting on pictures from our vacation, pictures from the show and so much has been going on.

First, our vacation in Michigan was so much fun! We went camping, parading, boating on the lake, ate yummy food, and spent time with family and friends. We were two busy people! There's always that moment during a vacation when you wish you had more days because you know time is running short. We got to eat at Lelli's which is our favorite Italian restaurant and it was beyond delicious. It was so tasty that I had to fulfill my yearly quota of beef. I don't eat red meat except about once or twice a year.

After we returned, we had another show this past Saturday at TRiP in Santa Monica. My brother, Naje and his lovely girlfriend Esther flew out from New York to watch the show. He's never seen me perform live and it was such an amazing moment to share with him. Last weekend was a family affair because my mom and Stan came as well. The show was awesome and so many friends came out to support us.

In between all of this, I've somewhat recovered from a throat infection. I caved in and took antibiotics and got better but now I feel blah. The weather has been blazing so we've had to sleep with the air conditioner on which I know is not the greatest thing for one's throat. I just haven't felt all the way healed and hopefully, this will all end soon because...

We are looking for a new place to live! It isn't set in stone but I pretty much think we will be moving shortly. We'll still live in the same town but in a new house. I've already looked at seven places in a manner of seven days and continue to search everyday. I feel like my life is at a crossroad and in limbo. We are both anxious to find something soon and get settled in. It's weird because two of my best friends are moving. One is in Texas and the other will be in Hawaii. Things never stay the same and we are all trying to build new lives in new places.

I hope to have so many more pictures to share from the trip and the show. I have missed you all and look forward to keeping you updated on how my home, health, music and well-being balance out.

Monday, August 13, 2012

Versatile Award

The endearing Unikorna who continually draws me in with every post she writes at Why I Wake Up Every Day was generous to award me and Life Between Living a versatile blog award. There are a few rules but I think we all pretty much know that one has to thank the blogger who nominated them, nominate others to received the award and then post seven random facts about themselves. So without further ado, here are seven random facts about me:

1. I believe food tastes better when it's upside down. Examples include: pizza, cookies, toast, open-faced sandwiches...

2. I am 5'3" and sometimes use a step stool to reach things in higher cabinets, on top of the refrigerator and/or to hang pictures.

3. I was born in Illinois, raised in San Diego and reside in Los Angeles.

4. When I first met Brian, I lost his phone number and was really sad. I went on to MySpace the next day and found him.

5. In the second grade, I wore my Halloween costume to school because we were having a carnival that evening and I thought we were supposed to wear costumes throughout the day. To my utter dismay, no one else did and I got teased on the bus by everyone because I was the only one in costume. Once I got to school, I cried so hard because I was the only Princess Ballerina in class and begged my mom to bring me a change of clothes. She couldn't because our school was pretty far from home (we had to take 2 buses to get there) so my teacher, Mrs. Hill, asked me to stand up in front of the class and told everyone I looked so pretty and that my costume was lovely. For the rest of the day and during recess, all of the kids treated me like a princess and made me feel so special. That is a memory I will never forget.

For the Versatile Award, I'm nominating a lovely woman that I like to refer to as "Introvert" even though her name is Ana, who shares with us at her blog Introverted Art --life lessons, self-introspection and beautiful artwork that accompany each post.

**After initially publishing this blog, I realized I forget to add two more here goes...

6. I am afraid of the dark.

7. Since I mentioned Halloween above, one time at the elementary school carnival, my mom came dressed as a bum. She wore her hair wild underneath a brown hat, blacked out some of her teeth with eyeliner, put a pillow in her belly and held a can out for money. People thought she was real and she scared some of the kids. My single-digit aged self was so horrified. I asked her over and over, "Why did you wear that outfit Mommy? Why?". LMAO!!!!!

Now that I look back, I think she was so creative and just a cool mom!

Thursday, August 9, 2012

Album Crunch Time

We've been diligently working on the album Life Between Living for awhile now but have recently given ourselves the goal of having all of the pre-mastered, pre-pressing-up material done by next Friday, August 17. That night we leave for Michigan to visit our family and to finally...finally have a VACATION!

The songs that will be on this album have been written throughout my life. One song was written after we got married last year and is called Union Station. I think a couple of the songs were written just on piano when I was about eighteen or nineteen. They baked and sat in my keyboard for years but it wasn't until I was lucky enough to have access to all of Brian's equipment (Thanks Babe!) that I was able to breathe more life into the songs. I added strings, beats, odd sound effects sometimes and laid down scratch vocals.

Years passed and some songs got kicked off the album, then added on, then kicked off again and then added on. Then, one day Brian said he wanted to help me finish. Here and there he'd add certain things to the songs but it wasn't until this year that we both committed to seeing it through to being put out and sold.

Now that he has added his touches--whether it be guitar, bass, mixing, sounds, different drum beats, percussion, rearrangements--this album has transformed immensely and inspires me every single day I listen to it. I always sight Ben Affleck and Jason Lee's characters from the movie Chasing Amy to describe our musical partnership. I create the songs and get them to the point where I can't do anything with them and he comes along to give them a depth and perception I envisioned but had no idea existed or was possible. 

We still have tons of work to do -- we need to add final vocals to three songs - but every day I'm listening to a newer version of each song (Brian, the vampire, does his best work at night so there are constant updates, lol) and it keeps me moving forward.

To come this far and to know that I will finally have a CD that I can be proud of fills me with something I can't describe.

*This pic is from our honeymoon last year in Thailand. We were sampling the street food in Bangkok which was delicious. 

Monday, July 30, 2012

A Few Photos From The Show

I am waiting to get more photos and footage but so far, here are some of the photos from last night. I stole this one above of us playing and hope to get more off us on stage! The ones below are with friends and family:) We had the best show that we've had so far. We switched around our set list and I think it helped changed things up for us. I felt more relaxed and yet energized because our crowd rocked. They were dancing - which doesn't usually happen because people mostly watch and bob their heads but they were dancing up a storm and we fed off of their enthusiasm.

Taken by Stephanie's hubby, Sergio - Stephanie, Eva and me. 

Stan and Brian

Channeling Cleo:)

With my Muse, Inspiration and Groupie for Life!

Mommy and me

Friday, July 27, 2012

Show Tomorrow Night!

We have a show tomorrow night at On The Rox! I am very excited because a lot of people are coming. I'm also excited because simply, I get to do what I love to do the most in the whole wide world.

Here's a preview of a demo we're working on - I posted these lyrics in a blog post awhile back - We've Just Begun To Live - and now you can hear what the lyrics and the music sound like together in this rough version!

Folder "We've Just Begun To Live.mp3"

Come check us out if you're in town! Otherwise, I want to thank all of you who commented on my previous post and everyone who supports this blog in general. I appreciate the lovely friendships I've made!

Time to ROCK OUT!

Sunday, July 22, 2012


This week has been a difficult week. Our best friends' mother passed away on Wednesday and another old family friend's son passed away on Friday. Not to mention the shootings in Colorado. For a beautiful woman to suddenly have limited time with her family and a young man to be inflicted with a deadly disease at the age of twenty-six, one must wonder why the hell someone in Colorado would treat life with such disregard and plain hatred.

The human race never ceases to amaze me...yes, part of my tone is angry and upset. I am upset because life should not be held in such disregard. Those who treasure it are forced to move on to the afterlife and those who don't somehow get arrested and spend their lives in jail with no remorse and no sorrow for the lives they have ruined. People like that should be shipped into orbit and released into nothingness..seriously.

However, returning to that statement above, another part of me believes there is hope for humans. Our friends' mom, Susan, raised two men who are loving husbands and great fathers. She lived to have six grandchildren and when I see their beautiful faces, all I can think about is how lucky they are to have had such a grandmother. When I think of the moments we've all spent together laughing, engaging in some cut-throat game nights, enjoying the holidays, weddings, birthdays and deep conversations about our life dreams, my heart is full of love and I am so grateful for the memories we've shared and the bonds we've created.

Today is Susan's memorial and I will be there with an open heart and pray that Time will lend its hand to slowly heal the wounds of all who are sorrowed. 

Tuesday, July 10, 2012

Brotherly Love

My brother and his girlfriend visited us last week and we had way too much fun. When I start pushing my bedtime further and further back, that's when I know I'm around people I just love to be around. My brother called me and his girlfriend "Time Bandits" because our conversations always got deeper right before we had to be somewhere.

When you're with people who bring love and light into your world, time stops. You're having so much fun and you never want it to end. I had one of the best weekends I've had in awhile and can't wait to visit them in New York sometime this year or early next. Cheers to family!