Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Today Is My Mom's Birthday

I had so much fun this past weekend hanging out with her. We went to dinner and then watched a band play. The dinner was fun but we were so appalled at the servings. We ordered two appetizers - salmon bites and crab cakes - and they served us one crab cake to split. The salmon bites were only enough to fill a small cereal bowl.

After we vowed never to eat in the dining room again, we walked across to the bar to watch the band play. It was nice to see my mom mingling with friends as she made her way through in the audience. She sings at this venue all of the time and instead of having to put on a show, she was able to relax and enjoy herself for the evening.

Dancing with my mom was so much fun. We always make funny faces and mimic each other. We also had a great time watching other people dance. In fact, that's one of my favorite parts about going out. There was Mr. Roger's Neighborhood dancing in his argyle sweater. Ms. "Too Short" dress pulling it down at every second doing some weird booty moves. Hellboy looming over us while we were dancing by the stage. Who can forget George Costanza singing all the lyrics to Black Eyed Peas but forgetting to keep the rhythm of the beat.

Sigh...Smile...Good Times!

                                           Happy Birthday Mommy!

Sunday, November 13, 2011

When I Stumble Upon My Old Journals...

I am greeted with something so familiar.

I can feel the same emotions I felt--anxiety, sadness, anticipation, loneliness, happiness--and it makes me feel comforted.

I feel lucky to have written down events of the past because they somehow help me to understand the present.

I have so many selves and they all blend together and all still exist individually.

It reminds me of staring into a mirror with another mirror behind me.

There are so many versions present at the same time.

To write is to live.

Wednesday, November 9, 2011


11/11/11 is a holiday for me. Eleven has been my favorite number every since I can remember. Sometime in junior high, I coined the alias "Eleveness" and have used it since. "Eleven" is for my favorite number and "ess" is the first letter of my name spelled out. My zodiac sign, Aquarius, is the eleventh sign and I was born at 1:17am. 7 is also a favorite of mine so this came as a shock to me when my mom showed me my birth certificate.

Having said all of that, I am truly looking forward to celebrating something that occurs every hundred years. Another coincidence is that eleven is also Brian's favorite number and the number he used for playing sports his whole life. I really thought he was just copying me when he said it was his favorite number but after I saw proof, I was in awe.

At 11:11 on 11/11/11, I plan on being with my love celebrating life, happiness and all things coincidental.

*I started a new blog and am seeking followers. It an experiment because I've found another voice. It's called The Crimson Clock and it's a "Period Blog" not as in punctuation...

Tuesday, November 1, 2011


Doing something simple can be so much more fulfilling than an elaborate plan
Just laughing with family and friends can be the most exciting thing in the world
A good cry is all you need to begin again
Not crying can be the best choice for the moment
You can be strong without being forceful through embracing gentleness and ease
Things that seem complicated are actually really simple when you think about it
The most beautiful person in the world is staring back at you in the mirror
We do things our parents do without even knowing it and all we can do is laugh