Monday, October 31, 2016

Friday, September 23, 2016

Autumn Is Here

Autumn is here and for me that means more sunset chases.

It's reflecting on the previous months, the upcoming holidays and the new year ahead.

It's candlelit movie nights and dinners and hearing the wind chase leaves into the air.

It's wrapping up projects and slowing down.

It's sitting under a tree at the park and getting lost in a book.

There's renewal in the shorter days because daylight is precious.

It's shedding this year's weight and preparing for the opportunity to begin the next year free.

**photo by Brian Chism**

Friday, July 22, 2016

What To Say?

The up and downs of the world have paralleled ups and downs in my life. Or maybe the ups and downs of the world are the same in my life. I have had things to say but I haven't wanted to say them. The endless cycle of police brutality, death, terrorists attacks, the war of the left and right have left me wanting to shut it off. To shut it away.

I have asked those who came before me many times if things are worse now then they were then and they say that they're not, it's the access and the frequency of the information that makes it seem worse. These things were always going on, my mother says, it's just that now we're seeing them everyday and they're right in our face.

Right in my face makes it worse for me. To escape means to disconnect, to turn off, to delete, to log off. There are so many beautiful aspects of the internet that are positive - reading others writing and blogs, discovering new recipes, getting lost on Wikipedia, learning how to do something on YouTube, watching my family and friends' little ones grow up, take their first steps, learn to speak, or friends getting engaged, wedding pictures, hopes, dreams, connecting, the future...

But the death, the fighting, the disagreements, the arguing, the left, the right, the terrorism, the bombs, the trolling, the disrespect, the bloodshed, the injustice, the murdering, the violence, the bullying, the racism, the intolerance, the disregard for human life, the apathy, the money-driven machines competing to be first to share the heartbreak to the public, the inequality and division on repeat, again and again, click, repeat,, watch, post, repeat...

Is too much.

I will never lose faith in humanity even though my faith in people has diminished.  I know there's a light and I understand what is precious and how moments with those you love and cherish are the colors that decorate this book of life.

Saturday, May 21, 2016

Unproductive or Productive Saturday?

All morning I've been caught up with blog tweaking. Now that it's 3:34 pm, I'm wondering how I can turn this Saturday into a productive one. I've got laundry, cooking, dishes to do and somehow feel like the day is already over. On the Saturdays when I'm able to get that stuff done, I feel like my blog and writing in general is neglected. How do you manage art and responsibilities? How does one balance writing, letting time pass and then engaging in a mindless task like cleaning the house? 

Inquiring minds need to know.

I guess I'll start with the dishes and see where that takes me...

Saturday, May 14, 2016


We celebrated our five-year anniversary in Las Vegas like we promised we would. My mom and our good friends Tony and Cherry joined us for a couple of days and we had so much fun. I got stuck at the Roulette table multiple times and found a slot machine with some serious bonuses that kept me occupied. We ate some delicious food and even got to watch our first show, The Beatles Love by Cirque du Soleil, courtesy of Brian's good friend.

We retraced our steps to the Flamingo chapel where we got married and even had time to explore a few places outside of the strip. It was nice to get away and to remember the cherished memories that our wedding in Las Vegas five years evoked.

The riddle of it all is that while I feel like I have changed over these past five years, who I am truly inside will always remain the same. And my love for him, although it multiples exponentially each and every day, will always be unchanged, unmoved and unwavering. 
Cheers to love!

Friday, January 22, 2016

Happy New Year!

Yes, it happened. We finally went ice skating during the holidays. Yes, I railed it for the first couple of times around the rink and then I saw my mom zip by me and got enough courage to tread without a safety net. Brian was so great at skating, he whipped and zipped by everyone and of course, came up behind me to scare me a couple of times. Stan played it safe and hung out by the rail but eventually he ventured out into brave territory and danced a little bit.

(My mom's so cute!)

When the burning in our legs finally slowed us down, we called it a night. I had a blast and it really made my Christmas holiday feel like the holidays.

Now it's January and everything is fresh and new. Resolutions are booming and people feel like time has slowed down again. I, for some reason, feel like it's still going by so fast so I am trying to make each day count. My resolutions aren't just for January, they're for the whole year.

Happy New Year My Fellow Aliens!

Friday, December 11, 2015


I'm on a Facebook and Instagram hiatus for the month of December. This is something I did last year and I found myself really liking the break from the influx that is social networking. I recognize blogging can be seen as a form of social networking but there isn't that influx of information coming at you at lightning speed. It takes time to actually sit there and read a blog. There's a certain pause that comes with commenting on a post. It's not just a quick "Like" which really doesn't say much of anything except give us instant gratification.

For some reason, I've found myself wanted to "unplug" more often. I've been longing to open up a new book (or an old one I've yet to finish) on the patio. As you can see in the photo above, we need to do some serious raking however, I must say, my cactus is growing rather nicely. There's even a little one making it's way through the pot.

With "unplugging" comes spending time with Brian, family and friends. We have some changes coming later next year which I am not ready to divulge on this platform yet so this holiday season will be celebrated to the utmost.

Our new favorite game is Reverse Charades. It is soooo fun and freakin hilarious. I cannot wait to play it again. Instead of one person acting out a clue silently, one person guesses while the other players act out the clue. When you're the one guessing, you have no idea who to watch.

We're going to make the effort to go ice skating this year. We wanted to go last year but got sick the night of Christmas, ugh. I haven't gone in years and wasn't very good at it. I don't care though, I'll be that one laughing loudly along the rails making slow circles and trying to get up the courage to skate a couple of feet without touching anything. Of course, Brian will be the pro since he played hockey growing up. It'll be neat to see him skate and trying to get me off the rails!

I'm not sure if I'll write another post before the new year so in case I don't - I hope all of you have a beautiful holiday season and a memorable New Year. 2016 Baby! 

Tuesday, November 10, 2015

The Show Rocked!

Shout out to Sandra Cox for inquiring about how the show went. You guys really touched my heart with your well wishes. The show was definitely a success. It was sort of a trial to see if we could perform without a whole band and we pulled it off. I sang and played keys and Brian played guitar and bass to the tracks from the album. Our lovely friends held the show in their backyard and I think it was the first time I ever played outside. It was dark so the pictures didn't come out as bright as we wanted but here's one that Brian managed to get:

Our friend Jonny also performed an acoustic set and watching him perform made me appreciate the talents and gifts my friends and family have. Performing with Brian was such a highlight. Of course, we're married so we share our lives together but being able to share art and collaborate creatively is truly a wonderful thing. My mom, who is a dynamic singer and performer was there also. Seeing her with her camera phone in the crowd made my heart warm when I was on stage. So...I will definitely be looking to book some more shows at the beginning of next year. Things usually slow down for the holiday season and I will be slowing down too.

I had so much fun with this look. My mom helped me with the hair and the lovely @Jocyjayyy did my makeup.

Isn't she lovely? I love my mom. This outfit pic below came out too dark but I had to post it anyway because of how much fun it was to rock out, lol.

And then of course, after the hair comes off, the eyelashes come off, the contacts are out, the pajamas are on and it's time to wash my face and go back to being my introverted self and get some much needed sleep...

Wednesday, October 7, 2015

Upcoming Show - November 7!

If you happen to be in Los Angeles next month, I'm having a show on Saturday, November 7. It will be my first time performing songs from my album Life Between Living (available at and my good friend Jonny will be performing an acoustic set. It going to be an adventurous event and I am very excited!!!!!

Tuesday, September 22, 2015

A Time Without

I remember...

When days had more silence
No texts, no tags, no likes, no shares
The feeling of checking my answering machine when I got home
Not knowing what anyone was doing, thinking or saying at all times
Getting pictures in the mail of someone's kids 
Not knowing what someone ate, watched, listened to or hated
Listening to an album all the way through and experiencing its entirety 
Getting letters in class and reading them while walking home from school
Card catalogs
Thomas Guides
Using the white pages to find someone's number
Waiting for the DJ to announce the band on the previous song
Spending more time uninterrupted
Getting locked out of the house and waiting until my parents got home
When movie stars' real lives were mysteries 
The cacophony of neighborhood kids playing outside

My voice
A little bit louder
A little less drowned out by the outside world
A little less distracted