Tuesday, April 19, 2011

The Wedding List is Dwindling Down...

We got his ring last week and my ring resized. It's amazing how much you can accomplish if you do a little bit everyday. There are only a few more things left on our list but we are basically set and ready for take-off.

Everyone keeps asking me who else is coming to our wedding and I tell them all the same thing. "So-and-so said they were coming but I won't believe until they're right in front of my face." I know how things happen at the last minute. My mom couldn't take me to Disneyland everyday when I was little even though she promised.

Our 5-year anniversary was last Saturday which is also the birthday of a dear friend of mine. The day after that is the anniversary of a good friend of mine who passed 4 years ago. I use his homecoming to God or whatever entity resides over us to recognize my blessings.

Two couples I know are getting married in May/June and it puts a smile on my face because between the sadness in this world are huge moments of happiness. Celebrating, being with family and friends can make your shitty week seem like nothing when compared with the joy and love that surrounds you. I feel like crap - I have a cold -- but the way I look at it is: better now then during the wedding. Let my immune system build itself back up so I can party like it's 1999.

Oh yeah, did I mention I'm seeing Prince again this weekend? And playing The Mint next Tuesday? See, there are so many things to look forward to and I'm just getting started.

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

On Poetry, Experiences and Whatever Else I Feel Today...

I miss writing poetry but I am glad that I don't have that boxed-in feeling anymore. I feel compelled to write but I used to feel like my head would explode if I didn't.

I use to write to understand myself and I sort of still do but now I mostly write to understand life--to make sense of myself in it.

I used to lock myself in my room as a kid and write and write and write because it was my form of therapy. I would cry and scream and laugh and feel so many emotions all at the same time. After I wrote a poem, a sort of calm would come over me and I'd start to feel better. I am happy I did this because I have so much material to look back on and remember the different phases I went through. 

I don't know if I'll ever reach that point where I've uncovered it all--digging through the sands of time to reach the diamond holding life's true meaning. But I do think that by digging, I become clearer at how I understand angles and reflections. 

Each of our experiences are different so we must choose our own individual way or ways in which we attempt to make sense of them. At one end of the spectrum, sometimes you become so busy that you don't have time to stop and think. Then all of a sudden, things slow down and you have this pile of experiences to decipher and organize all at once.

At the other end, if you spend all of your time analyzing and contemplating--life speeds by you and you miss the hustle and bustle that keeps you lost in the moments. 

So I guess we have to--or I have to create a balance. 

In order to understand my experiences, I must live them.
And while living these experiences, 
I must remember to step back in order to understand them. 
Life between living. Living between life. 

Monday, April 11, 2011

Live Footage of In Lieu Of at San Diego IndieFest 7

In Lieu Of @ San Diego IndieFest 7

Today's Snapshot - My Favorite Tree

When I walk or jog around my neighborhood, 
There's this tree I pass that I love to see.
It's shaped like broccoli and if I were a giant,
I snatch it up and eat it.
But then I'd get sad because when I came 'round again
It wouldn't be there.
Instead it'd be my belly,
Planting roots and making more broccoli trees spring up.

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Today's Snapshots

Two shots for today. The first is from the end of the movie "Eat Pray Love". It's so romantic and so beautiful. (Yes, I am secretly making throw up noises in the back of my throat.) But I do enjoy a happy ending and even though I make the noises, I still get that nice feeling in my tummy.


The second picture is from my evening run tonight. It's in my neighborhood and the crescent moon welcomed me into the twilight. I get that same feeling of happiness inside when the sky beckons me.









Tuesday, April 5, 2011

Today's Snapshot

This picture is the view from a seafood restaurant called Gladstone's off Sunset Blvd. I ate here one lovely afternoon with my friend Rachel after meeting her at the Lake Shrine. We shared French fries and shrimp that was so tasty and the view was the perfect accompaniment. I love the sound of the waves crashing and I simply just love the beach. This summer, my plan is to spend a good amount of time there. I want to lose track of how many afternoons I lay in warm sand.

Monday, April 4, 2011

Today's Snapshot

I have this thing where I sit around and try to come up with concepts. I twist letters in my head, looking for acronyms, anagrams or I put words together such as "life between living" to see what I can create. Two common traits in the women of my family are petite noses and full lips hence the term Spilgibesonllams which is "small nose, big lips" backwards. My mom says it's because we have Irish in our blood so she calls us black leprechauns! High cheekbones also runs in my family and it's cool to know that my great-grandparents on both sides were a mix between Black, Irish and Blackfoot Indian. 

Having a small nose has its privileges as I'm able to were a nose ring that pretty much goes unnoticed. One downside is because I hardly have a bridge, my glasses tend to slide down onto the tip of my nose at night when I take my contacts off. Of course, it seems like nowadays everyone wants big lips and I can't say I'd trade mine for anything. What I will say is that with the wrong lip color, my lips stand out quite a bit and if I get a bump, all hell breaks loose. Getting one means I might as well were a bandanna or medicine mask around my face if I decide to venture out into public places. My lip gets swollen and Mount Vesuvious prepares for eruption. Ewww...
Truly though, we are all beautiful and unique and I love discovering the features I share with my family and ancestors.

Sunday, April 3, 2011

Today's Snapshot

My lovely friend Adelia took me to one of the many Pho restaurants called Pho 999 down the street where we live. Since I stray away from red meat, I ordered the chicken soup not knowing what was in store for my taste buds. I was blown away by the simple way of which different ingredients are mixed in order to create an overall flavor that is so rich. The mint, with noodles, chicken, onions, fish sauce, hot sauce and a touch of lime do wonders in my mouth. I could literally drink the broth alone everyday and never tire of it. She and I eat here together at least once a week, if not more independently. Today I am having leftover soup from last night for breakfast which says a lot because if you know me, you know how much I love a more traditional breakfast meal. (In America at least) But when I like a soup, it makes my belly feel good. It makes me feel warm inside and any worry I have diminishes. I fill myself with goodness and hope it spreads over everyone this quiet Sunday morning.

Saturday, April 2, 2011

Today's Snapshot

Our front yard is decorated with lots of trees, squirrels and sometimes a few stray cats. Although today is overcast, there is beauty to be found in the hazy mist that the clouds linger between. Today my plan is to get caught up on a lot of projects I have started but have not finished. Green inspires me to relax, breathe deeply and tackle one thing at a time.