After an exhausting yet somehow introspective weekend, I plunged into this week with a new microscope. Being blue for awhile now, I regained focus on what's important to me...why I am truly blessed, what matters most...Love. Above being accepted by my peers and colleagues, above success, above constant affirmations in school, work and any other institution, love is the only element that makes everything else inconsequential. The love from another human being, whether it be your boyfriend or husband, girlfriend or wife, mom, dad, brother, sister or friend is the protective coating around you. It sheathes you and inspires you to simply just live, smile, laugh and rejoice each and every day. 'Tis not that I'd forgotten this...but only neglected it and let the world in its catastrophic paralysis, problems, issues and negativity dominate the front row for a second. I remembered how there are some things I cannot change in life and a whole bunch of other things I can't control. What I can do however is love--truly love with all of my heart and soul - and everything that is will be.
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
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Thursday, July 23, 2009
I am leaving work in five minutes and I dread the 405 freeway. It creates such a bad state of mind because of how congested it is anytime of any day. Sometimes I laugh at how ridiculous Saturday afternoons are when I think I'm going to have a day off from traffic and as soon as I make that turn onto the freeway I see cars lined up and hear honking. People drive crazily and I swear when I gaze at the people in the cars around me, everyone has that same look of disappointment on their faces. Motorcyclists zoom in and out of lanes and I must admit I envy their dare-devilism. I can see myself now...black hair under a black helmet in a Trinity-like outfit from the Matrix, weaving in and out of cars with a truck driver's recklessness. Do you see me? Yeah, I'm that chick on the bike passing you by while you sit in traffic. Dodge this.
Today is my first post on here and it feels promising. It feels like the beginning of a new chapter of yet another branch of my expression. I have another blog on MySpace but this feels different because I don't have to worry about keeping up with my photos, a bulletin, friends, etc. Also, the advertising distractions which somehow always lure me in no matter how much time I don't have when checking my inbox. I haven't chosen what my primary focus will be on this blog but I will soon as I have many projects going on and in the making. I'm currently trying to tone up for New Year's in Hawaii, writing some novels and working on an album. Perhaps I can write about all three!